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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 14, 2008 2:07:11 GMT -5
Ryan looked at him in fear. This was her fighting directly against her own worst enemy. It was Ryan versus the drugs. He was begging her to help him choose her. Her lungs filled with air as she pulled him close to her chest. "Shhh... I've got you." It was probably the hardest thing she'd ever done. Or do for that matter. "You don't need that stuff... I'm here." She thought it was rather disillusioned of him to say "To do some drugs" most people had more sladerous terms for it. But it seemed all the usage in the past had decoloured his vocabulary.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 14, 2008 15:31:09 GMT -5
Holding onto her he nodded. He breathed in her scent and sighed. "I shouldn't need it anymore. I know how much damage it does to me. I really do." He said to her and sighed again. "I love you baby so so much"
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 14, 2008 16:10:35 GMT -5
He knew the damage it did to him, but did he have any idea what damage it had done to her? The time she spent away from CHA had been....troublesome and she'd kept a lot of secrets from everyone. Even her brother. But if she told Conrad anything about the summer, it was sure to kill him. "I love you too handsome..." She was holding him close and trying not to think of how his actions had effected her and would effect her in the future.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 14, 2008 16:53:21 GMT -5
He leaned up and kissed her with all his love for her. Which was a hell of alot. Pulling away after a bit he stroked her face. "God your jsut so beautiful and perfect." He said to her and smiled at her more. "The most amazing person and perfect person I could ask for." He said to her and smiled again. "You just make everything right."
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Post by Jacob Rockwell on Jun 14, 2008 16:57:07 GMT -5
Jakob had heard of a student that was still serving a sentence and wondered if that student would help him in his quest. If anything he could fake the reason why he was there. Getting the key to his room from the guard that was on duty he walked into the room and saw Conrad and Ryan in the embrace that they were in.
"Well well isn't this a lovely site. Did you report in to the guards miss?" He asked her. "You do realize you have to talk to the guards everytime you come in. And lets see it is after 8 and Conrad you know your not supposed to have people in your room after 8."
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 14, 2008 17:22:12 GMT -5
Ryan tried not to cry. She wasn't perfect, she was defective. Her self image had been mutilated since they'd left CHA. When the door opened she looked up sadly. "Yes I did. I was just dropping off that." She pointed at the box at the teacher's feet. "It's the clothes I had. "Please sir...I'll only be a bit longer..I mean no harm. Only trying to help him through his hard time." Her eyes were lost and sad, the memories of the summer still clouding her thoughts. This was all too apparent on the hurt expression of her face.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 14, 2008 19:09:21 GMT -5
Jacob looked at them. "Fine. But you have only ten minutes." He said to them and left. Conrad looked as Jacob walked away. He looked at Ryan. "I guess you have to go soon. Thank you for bringing me my clothes though babe." He said to her with smile. "I really appreciate it baby." He said with a nother grin and leand over to kiss her.
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 14, 2008 20:03:28 GMT -5
Ryan nodded. She kissed him back tenderly. "I should go.." Standing she sighed and moved away from him a little. Her emotions were getting the best of her now and she needed to get away and clear her head. "I... I should... I need... I should jut go.." Panic was starting to ensue on her as she turned for the door.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 14, 2008 21:06:10 GMT -5
He looked at her oddly. "Babe what is up with you? What is wrong??" He looked at her oddly. "Your acting weird." He got up and grabbed her hand. "Baby you can tell me anything." He said to her and looked ever so worried.
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 14, 2008 21:20:39 GMT -5
"No! No I can't! I can't tell anyone. It's my secret." She didn't care about the tears now and let them fall freely. She was trembling as she stood there. Her eyes never met him as she put her arms around herself protectively. "I'm fine... I should just go."
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 14, 2008 21:42:51 GMT -5
Conrad looked at her. "What the heck Ryan...." He said and looked at her so hurt. "Hey you should be able to talk to me about anything babe." he aid to her and sighed. "I mean come on I am your boyfriend." He said trying not to cry. With the effect of the drugs in his system it made him emotional.
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 14, 2008 22:23:28 GMT -5
She flinched a little. "Could you like just not get mad at me?" Continuing to cry she quivered in front of him. "I don't know how to talk about it okay? I didn't even talk about it with Jake. This is happening a little fast. I'm just now forgiving you for leaving me for the junk, I don't know how soon I want to tell you all the bad things that happened while you were gone."
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 14, 2008 23:54:07 GMT -5
He sighed and looked down at his hands. "fine I will drop it and never speak of it again. Like to see that my girl can tell me anything." He said to her and sat on his bed again. Holding his head in hands he sighed again. He just wanted to comfort her and be there for her but instead she was pushing him away. It hurt so much for him to even think about it.
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 15, 2008 0:56:17 GMT -5
Ryan stood there staring at him. "God damn it..Conny.. Can't you see that it hurts me to talk about it?" She stormed out of the room, slamming the door shut. Two seconds she walked back in and stood there. "I was freakin pregnant okay? When we were all sent back home I had just found out. I tried to tell you, but I couldn't. You were in jail. I tried to do it myself. To be okay. But having you gone, hurt so bad that I lost the baby...I have no clue how, but he was 4 months early and....Still born... So tiny..." Ryan swallowed hard and sighed. "Guess that should just be so damn easy to talk about, huh?"
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 15, 2008 1:08:21 GMT -5
Conrad looked in shock. "You could of fucking told me when I was in jail baby!" He said and sighed. "Wait four month early does that mean he is dead...." He sighed and fell backwards on the bed. "How could you hide that you were preggers with the belly and everything...." He laid there lookin so confused and lost.
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 15, 2008 1:17:42 GMT -5
She moved and sat down next to him. "I was only three weeks pregnant when we were sent home. I didn't know for sure until the day after your arrest...at 6 weeks pregnant. I was so mad at you I couldn't tell you. The day I came to visit was the day I found out. I was so angry that I just....blamed you. I started to wear all of Jake's clothes. and lots of big hoodies. No one knew. Not even Jake. Only me. And then I went into labour...and rushed myself to the hospital. I'd barely found out it was a boy and then there he was...In the hands of the nurse. He was so tiny....not breathing.. not moving." She choked back her tears. "Yes Conrad... He's dead...Our baby didn't make it."
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 15, 2008 1:22:50 GMT -5
Conny didn't say anything for th elongest time. THen he got up and walked outside and came back. "I just paid off the guard and the teacher to let you stay for a while." He sai dand sat next to her. "I really wanted a baby.....a child to call our own." He said with a sigh. "Guess I fucked that one up" He said with a sigh again and laid with her. "Me I want a hulla hoop[. We can hardly stand the wait please christmas don't be late." He said singing Alvain and the Chipmunks
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 15, 2008 1:56:46 GMT -5
Ryan ignored his singing. "You didn't fuck it up. It was my fault. I'm the one who lost the baby. It was my stressed out body that failed." She sighed and laid down facing the ceiling. She chose not to look at him or touch him and just laid their quietly, bathing in her own hurt feelings. Waiting for the pain to ease a little, even though it never did.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 15, 2008 2:04:34 GMT -5
Rolling over he looked at her. "Let me love you please." He said to her. "Let me heal you and fix you." Sighing he looked around. "You should of told Jake. He wouldn't of freaked out and helped you as much as he can." He said to her. "Our first night of having sex and I get you pregent wow."
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 15, 2008 3:18:27 GMT -5
Ryan rolled over and curled up against his chest. She sobbed against his chest. It wasn't just their first time, it was her last time. She never had sex with anyone else after that night. She laid in his arms for a long time just crying. Her curly brown hair was in tangles around her. She'd wanted that child so badly. She thought it was her only chance to make him change. To win him back. To have a family. Maybe she was wrong, it seemed Conrad would have taken her back and changed for her even without the baby. "I'm sorry.. I wanted the baby too...And I lost him.."
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 15, 2008 15:38:54 GMT -5
Conrad held her close. "Shh I got you and I will never let you go. Everythig happens for a reason and we can't change the past. I am sorry shit hpapened this way babe." He said and stroked her head and rocked her
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 15, 2008 23:44:05 GMT -5
Ryan laid there and cried for a minute or two before speeking again. "What if that's it? What if there are no more chances? I'm defective!!!! What if I can't have children?!" Kids were something Ryan had always wanted. And though she was young and really didn't need the troubles of having a baby in highschool, or bothering to support it, she still felt like it was the right point in her life. Something she was made to do. Having a baby, even that early, felt perfect.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 16, 2008 17:28:05 GMT -5
"Your not defective hun." He said to her and nuzzled her. "Hun trust me ok? Just trust me please." He said and just rocked her. "I promise we will have children babe. I promise wiht my heart." He said to her and smiled more.
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Post by Ryan McGrath on Jun 16, 2008 17:50:45 GMT -5
"When??? How??" She was crying hysterically. She was still convinced she was useless in that department and had a few other things on her mind. "You're under lock and key, and survelance!! And how long will that be for? We can't raise a kid in an environment like that? And what about after graduation?? Will we move into the city on our own? Bring up a kid around here? What if I go to Santa what ever it is in California to go to school? what about our careers and jobs and dreams and.... us???" Her eyes scanned his for all the answers, hoping he had them.
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Post by Conrad Siberman on Jun 17, 2008 2:48:11 GMT -5
"Babe I will go with you wherever I have to. I will not leave you alone ever again. We will move away from here if we have to. I don't want children yet. Not with the threat of Todd Manning still here." He didn't want to have the risk of losing his child why they were here. "Babe I am sure your not defective. If you want we will go get you looked at and the headmistress said if I do what she asks I will get my freedom back. I get like sunday or something free so that will be our day."
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